janice is a pig because she forgot mel's birthday.

I AM SO TERRIBLY SORRY MELLIOS!!!!
PLS PLS PLS FORGIVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i deserve to be squashed under a petri dish.
i love you very much and i'm sorry i didnt wish you!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABE,
to the world's prettiest, greatest and hopefully most forgiving friend
when i earn my own money i'll buy you a snowglobe, nice and round one.

at night, i'm broken

Car crashes, TV shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People running;
Fantasy or reality
Analysis and theories
What does matter, really?
Tell me what to believe
Won't you bring me order.

round and round we go about the merry go round

Gone, like Frank Sinatra, like Elvis and his mom,

Like Al Pacino's cash, nothing lasts in this life.

i just want to breathe

i dont know what is going on inside my head ok
so STOP ASKING ME.

i know i screwed up midway,
i know i couldve prevented things from turning out the way they have
and i know i brought this shite not only upon myself
but on you and you as well
but feck it, i'm human too and i damn well make mistakes that i dont know how to deal with
so forgive me for having brought this tragedy upon us.
it was not intentional nor pre-planned.

i am fickle and irresponsible i dont deny
and i'm terrible at cleaning up my own mess.
so god help me. i dont know what to do.

In case you failed to notice

In case you failed to see

This is my heart bleeding before you

This is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart.

random fantasies

Greece.

somebody please take me there.
i think it's beautiful.

greece with Otters.
if only.
i want one.
its adorable.

Drizzling in greece with my pet otter.
ooh-la-la.
i'll live there
for the rest of my life.

These foolish things, remind me of you

how to create a janjan (updated version 06)

1. a box of jepenga
2. an abundance of God
3. 5 cauldrons of harry potter
4. 1 wardrobe-full of clothes
5. a sky full of sunshine
6. a handful of drizzle
7. 2 pages full of smiley scribbles
8. a bouquet of daisies
9. 3 purple-coloured fruitips
10. 1/2 a bag of sea-water scent
11. radio full of class 95
12. anything red
13. bathtub full of bubbles
14. a cupboard full of chick-lit
15. a mini-schnauzer by the name of baby

and not forgetting a daily dose of SALT

run away

Everything is so complicated
the more i try to grasp an understanding, the more it slips away
why do we do the things we do;
comprehension seems like an impossibility.

oh doesnt life suck.

i'm almost 18
and i still dont know what i want out of life,
nor do i know exactly what i'm living for.
floating with the tide seems so much easier..
call it escapism all you want, but i prefer it to be known otherwise.

ha. okay fine, escapism.
but i like it.
i think i like going where the tide takes me.
bad thing? not always right?

The great are only great

when others see them as such.

But those who are truly powerful, are powerful,

regardless of how they are seen.

chase

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me


and just forget the world.

back from outerspace

MY GOD, WHERE HAVE I BEEN?

earth sure looks different now.
for someone who used to be pretty smooth with html,
i really am a tech freak.

SO HELLO WORLD! its me and i'm back yay!
i feel so inadequate ha.
i'm a noob all over again!
what to say what to write
*ruffles hair in agony

seriously, how is this supposed to be like?
entries arent just about what i ate and who i hung out with anymore!
its all about intellectual property now.
oooooh. but i have nothing intellectual to say. rats.

pardon this lack of wisdom.
today, i take on the role of - a small girl of few words.
although most who know me will say otherwise.
(okay, maybe not A FEW words, but just not so smart words)

anyhow i'm so excited about starting a new blog
all thanks to my beloved STEL.
aight, ya'll see more of me!
i'll make an effort to raise some controversial issues or something (ugh).
till next time,
I LOVE hweesteltabJ
for helping me get through this -- you guys rock.

LOVE is walking hand-in-hand